mas

and yet, there is more.

today a CT scan of my noggin,
tuesday some surgery - not sure how much or what time. could just be outpatient, could be a week or so in the slammer, i mean, hopspital.

lots of feeling out of control, some confusion, some tears, some hugs, lots of lost sleep and phone ringing non stop. i appreciate all the well wishes and kind thoughts and only wish i could see everyone in person to solicit more hugs. i am stock piling them.

at this point this thing is either

an infection
cancer

crazy.